same
Mom: What's wrong?
My mind: I used to do so well in school but I'm not anymore.
My mind: The people I call friends, aren't my actual friends.
My mind: I'm constantly feeling alone.
My mind: I'm starting to look at myself different.
My mind: Nothing feels the same anymore.
My mind: I feel like I'm going to fail at anything I try to do.
My mind: I haven't been eating that much and I'm hungry all the time.
My mind: I feel like no one cares about me.
My mind: I just wanna sleep all day and never wake up.
Me: Oh nothing I'm fine.
My Day… May 1st, 2012 (completely true)
may i just say, today was amazing. i was in crooked billet day at an elementary school i went to 3 years ago (i was playing in the jazz band), and i sat next to this guy i really like. my friend told me the day before as i was getting lunch, that he was going to ask me out during that day. so throughout the whole ceremony, we just talked quietly and laughed a little, it was a lot of fun. but the good stuff started to happen on the bus back to our school. when we were getting loaded on the bus, he sat next to me and all of a sudden, all eyes were on us. i assure you i am not joking, everyone on that bus was staring at either me or him, it was really embarrassing, and i ended up squished on the wall so no one could see my beat-red face. my best friend knew what was going to happen, so she decided to “set the mood” by singing love songs… so yeah. that made things a bit awkward. after about 10 minutes of laughing (and almost dying from lack of oxygen), everyone started to countdown. my friend who told me he was going to ask me out said things like, “man up!” and, “do it already!” yeah, she’s a bit impatient. two minutes after everyone had screamed zero, he turned to me, and everyone was dead silent, i’m not even joking i wouldn’t be surprised to find that no one was breathing at that moment. anyway. so he turned to me and said, “Micky (i’m not going to put my real name there), do you want to go out with me?” he said it kind of shy, and i don’t blame him everyone was staring at him. when i said yes, everyone cheered and my friend screamed to announce that we were officially going out. so… yeah. fun day. XD this is completely true btw. i have such awesome friends, don’t i?
